Some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much, but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin. -Tori Amos
I drank some toxic thoughts yesterday. They swept up upon me as if someone was pouring shots down the throat of an alcoholic – it came from nowhere, was overwhelming and debilitating. Yet, necessary.
Sometimes we all need to crawl into our old wounds to rediscover where our fears lie. We have to have the courage to look our fear in the face; this might take a few minutes, or it might take a few days, but eventually, you will conquer the fear you are battling. It may bleed and hurt for a while, but always remember that bleeding is necessary in order for healing to ever begin. We need an open wound to be cleansed in order for it ever to scar and fully heal.
As for me and my toxic-thought-binge from yesterday, I feel cleansed. Every day, every hour, and every moment is an opportunity for a clean slate, a fresh start. If you are fighting fear or battling toxicity, find an outlet and take care of your body so that you mind and your heart may be strengthened.
I am a new woman, thanks to a few great workouts, a great night of sleep, and some soul-searching. A day of battling fear is never a day wasted, for it is in our own struggles that we strengthen our courage and authentic knowledge of self. Clinging to your own authenticity is a skill that must be practiced, so give thanks when you are given the opportunity to put your own to the test.